“What number were you afraid to see?” asked my therapist a couple of years ago.
“Hmm…” he pondered aloud as I was sitting on the couch in his office becoming aware of the fact that my hands were now sweating, “do you think you could write it down on the marker board if you don’t want to say it out loud?”he asked with a kind smile.
“Okay, I guess I can,” I replied reluctantly and stood up from the couch dreading the task at hand.
Picking up a marker from the ledge beneath the board, I took a deep breath and wrote the number that had haunted me for years: the number that I tried to stay at or below each morning when I hopped on my scale to weigh myself: the number that told me if I was good enough that day.
This experience is one that I will never forget and it is one that I never want to forget because it taught me such a valuable lesson: God does not see the number on the scale – he sees me. And God does not see the number on your scale either – he sees you and loves you so so much!
My dear reader, I am writing this short post tonight because in the past few weeks I’ve heard/read so many self-depreciating comments regarding weight and body image from individuals I’ve worked with or in my social media news feeds, and I just wanted to remind you that you are beautiful and lovely in God’s eyes and my eyes! Rather than focusing on how much you weigh, focus on the people and things in your life that bring you joy whether they may be friends, family, or careers and hobbies. And if you feel the need to focus on a number, perhaps set a goal for how many kind things you can do in a day or set a goal for how many minutes you want to spend in prayer this week. Know that you are so much more than a number and that you are loved! 🙂